Another time

I've already vomit, but this time it has been a little hard I think because the binge were sugar free biscuits, mini chocolate biscuits and soy milk. I could not vomit everything and I feel so bad, physically and psychologically. There have been a lot of calories... Tomorrow I will eat only fruits and vegetables, not fats.

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