My Demons
I've already barfed twice or third in this week after a binge (it has been nuts handful and 4 peanut butter toasts). I'm in this hell since November 2018th, although I don't vomit every week nor every month. In fact, at the beginning I only did it once per month, even some times there was months I didn't vomit (because I didn't binge me, and if I did it, I did sport and next day I ate a 600kcal diet, eating fruits and vegetables only). But two or three months ago this torture becomes uncontrollable. I have binges every time but I eat healthy food because in my pantry there isn't junk food. Although the binges are healthy, I eat food in a impulsive way. I realize I have a problem but there is another: I don't want to gain weight. I weight 50kg (sometimes 49 and sometimes 51) and height 169cm. I also know the reason of this disorder: the new job; the study of public examinations; to live far away to my partner and family; the professi...